Things are getting better

Things are getting better

Over the last few months I went through some of the most difficult times I can remember. At times I needed to spend large amounts of time with God just to make it through the day. Time and again I was overcome with feelings of anxiety and worry.

A major source of my anxiety was my internship. I’m almost done, and I received terrific reviews from my supervisor. From the perspective of those who are trying to train me I’ve done well but their encouragement did little to comfort me. Inside I was driven to be the best. I wanted to be as good as faculty that have been teaching 10 or 15 years. I don’t think I really caught on that my goals were unrealistic. I still have 6 more classes to teach. The next one is tomorrow morning.

I think I’m finally beginning to let this go. Ministry success can become a blinding temptation. I think I wasted a lot of worry trying to be a success instead of trying to be faithful. It was wrecking me inside. I feel a lot better now that focus has switched from success to faithfulness. I wonder if that is an important aspect to ministry.

  1. #1 by Michael on February 28, 2003 - 5:30 am

    I’m in the opposite situation. I am studying a postgraduate course which has not gone well. I’m finally getting somewhere, but it’s a constant struggle. The only reason I have stuck with it was because of a prophecy that has proved extremely accurate and specific to my situation, including the timing of certain events. I have felt a failure and a large amount of stress. Through this God has taught me to look for the miraculous and have faith and hope. Hope is often forgotten but is an important quality.
    Failure does not necessarily mean you’ve been going against God’s will as many believe, but rather that He needs to teach you something difficult that only comes through struggle and faith.

  2. #2 by Susan L. Prince on February 28, 2003 - 10:26 pm

    Faithfulness is one of the most important factors in ministry, if not THE most important one. Where is any believer without faith? Keep your focus and seek His Face. He is forever faithful to you. He will do mighty things through you, His faithful servant.

  3. #3 by Andrew Careaga on March 1, 2003 - 11:24 am

    Good words. Wise words. Thank you.


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