Hitting Rock Bottom
People talk about how addicts and alcoholics need to hit “rock bottom”. We all need to get to that place. At rock bottom we are ready to give up on all of our personal expectations. I’ve been there. The last time it happened to me I flipped through a stack of evaluation forms and found 2 out of three people thought I was awful.
When our self image is tied to our abilities we put ourselves in a terrible spot. There will always be dramatically difficult times in our lives that are caused by our own faults and failures. We can fight it. We can rationalize and blame. We can run and ignore reality. However our best of course of action is to just let it go. Let go of what we want to do, and who we want to be the eyes of others and accept that we aren’t what we are trying to be.
Rock bottom is a glorious place though. Life gets better in a hurry. For driven people it is sometimes our personal expectations that form the dagger that pierces our hearts. We get so wrapped up in what we want to do, and who we want to be that when we fail it is devastating. It is like our entire world implodes. When we forget about our pride and accept that we are failures called to faithfulness life gets easier. We are not called to succeed, we are called to faithfulness.