Teaching takes a lot out of me
There is a definite pattern I go through when I teach. I start off nervous, especially if I haven’t taught in awhile. Then slowly I warm up. The better I know the material the quicker I become comfortable with the class. There are times when real heart felt emotion and passion just kind of slides through. I’ll just be going on and I will just slide in to a very fluid mode and I feel like I’ve become this conduit for God’s Spirit. Those are the best classes, but man I feel wiped after them.
I’m not one to hide much, and may be too careless with my disregard for my image. I often talk about my failures and struggles and I don’t generally care if I look stupid. Sometimes that sinks me and I lose my audience. Being authentic is great when I’ve earned the trust from my hearers, it doesn’t work so well when I haven’t earned that trust.